Bring on 2009!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and hope that the heavy snowfall didn't ruin your holiday as it almost did to mine. I really wish we will never ever break the record because it was not fun trekking outside down the hills with my 50year old knee. Anyway, thanks to those random strangers who helped us out by pushing and shoveling our car. Your kind hearts touched us all.

I'm s0 ready for 2009!!! I'm ready for the new year!!! Many predict it will be a good one! BRING IT ON!

Continuing

Hi, I think and believe there are enough of you visiting my site to keep my blog going...well at least for a little bit longer. I will persevere.

Here's a quick update:

1) I just finished my last yoga session. Loved it but don't think I will continue. Why you ask? My knee. I loved the tranquility it brought to my life but the limitations of my knee affected my every move. I recommend yoga to everyone - it's amazing to achieve peace of mind and of body.

2) I am midway through my swimming lessons. I'm at level 3 and I'm struggling to improve. My lack of practice and laziness has affected my ability to become Michael Phelps! jk. Will I become a drop out?? I wonder...

3) My birthday is coming up. I won't be having a big celebration this year. I'm turning.. well.. too old. Age is just truly a number right? I still believe that I'm young at heart!

4) Work ... well it still sucks.

That's about it for now! Ciao!

Goodbye???

Hello my friends,

I am seriously contemplating saying goodbye to my blog. I just don't have the enthusiasm or motivation I once had when I started writing. Should I continue or should I say goodbye?????

Rain, rain, rain...

I have to stand my ground even it rains...

Change is in the air.

I believe.

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! Gobble gobble!

A new beginning?

I'm loving my 7am shift!! I can't believe I actually said that. =)

Congrats Kent and Leah!

This wedding was a special one for me because it brought back a lot memories from highschool. I was able to catch up with some friends who I haven't seen for the longest time. It was definitely a mini reunion. Thanks to Kent and Leah for letting me share this special day with you and letting me relive my younger years with some of my closest friends. There were definitely a lot of laughter that night and I can only hope that my friendship with my closest friends continue for a life time!

Whoever you are...

Thank you for shedding that light on me. Finally everything seems so clear now. It's about time! Thank YOU whoever you are.

Time for an update

I can say that my decision to take some time off was a good one. I am sad that I only have a week and a bit left before heading back to work. During my time off, I was able to focus on myself and not the people around me. I was able to do things I wanted to do and not have to worry. It feels so good to be free... free from stress. I was able to have time for myself... myself only. My mindset is now different...in a positive way of course.

Thanks to those who were able to find time for me during the busy summer season to meet up. It was great catching up and I know I haven't been the best person in terms of keeping in touch. I apologize to those who I haven't had the chance to meet up with. We will have to meet up some other time. You are not forgotten.

We are now nearing the end of summer 2008. I will miss the joy that the sun brings.

I'm in a love-hate relationship... with weddings.

I think this is pretty much self-explanatory but I will still share with you my thoughts.

I love weddings because it's a union of two people who are madly in love and deeply committed to spending the rest of their lives together. The love that they share usually brings tears to my eyes and makes my heart tingle inside. Seeing a couple so in love makes me want to be in love.

I hate weddings because I want to be that person who has found that person to spend the rest of my life with. Having to go to a wedding alone kind of sucks. I'm sure all you single people out there will understand exactly what I mean. I believe this is a universal feeling for most single people.

Young at heart

I must say that Friday night hangouts with my coworkers always bring out the kid in me. I enjoy their company very much and I have a great time... or maybe it's just the alcohol in me that makes me so happy. Regardless of whether it's the alcohol or not... I just giggle waaaaay too much. I think we all need a good laugh. If you haven't laughed in a while, it means you're not enjoying life!!! Let loose!!

I'm back

So here's the scoop. I'm not working from July 26 to Sept 3. What will I be doing? I have no clue. If you want to meet up or hang out... Just give me a shout!! It's time for me to find myself and discover what I've been missing out. ;)

Wow

Things are much better. Strange. But I'm glad. Things can only get better!!
LOVING THE SUN!

A promise I made to myself

I'm letting go and moving on...

Me, Myself and I

There has been a lot of stuff on my mind recently. Thoughts that I don't think are necessarily good for me. I'm thinking of ways to tackle this problem of mine but I haven't been able to come up with a solution. I hate to always be venting on my blog but this is my way of coping... so please bear with me. I'm extremely glad that summer is here... I couldn't imagine how I would be if it was the fall or winter where it's cold, dark and gloomy.

I wish you well.

Why?

unexpected

Movies

So this past week I went to see 2 movies... Young People F%#king and Sex and the City. Yes, they both have something in common: SEX. I must admit, I really enjoyed them both. They were both hilarious and it definitely made me laugh pretty hard. Sex and the City had some moments that touched me deeply. If you have an open mind and want a good laugh, go watch it!!

It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

anonymous

I'm wondering what you're wondering....

Where did the sun go???

Congrats Allen and Sandra!!

Wishing you both forever happiness!

Reflection

I know everyone makes mistakes. I've made many mistakes. I know I can't undo the wrongs but deep down, I really wish I could. I know there's not much I can do about them right now... and I know the only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes. I regret some of the decsions I've made and some of my actions. I really wish I can turn back time and make it all better.

Not a happy camper these days

Hello there.
It's been a rough few weeks for me. You ask what's wrong? Well, I can only say that I've been really stressed from work, and that stress is taking a toll on my health. Plus there other personal problems that I will not be sharing with you at this moment. I'm trying hard to change my beliefs, my personality or I mean the way I react to things. I keep telling myself to not take things so seriously or at least I should just relax a little and not let it get to me. But for those who know me, I am a bit high-strung and that's definitely not a good thing. I'm trying to change myself for the sake of my health.

I've been having dreams, dreams of my past and of people in my past who I no longer keep in touch with. I won't go into too much detail but I miss these moments. I miss what I once had and it makes me sad knowing that I may never experience those ever again.

Today I'm sick. I'm at home laying in my bed with a sore throat. Vitamin C here I come!

Best Weekend so far!

I hope you are all enjoying this beautiful weather we're having in Vancouver. It's absolutely gorgeous. Thanks M and S for spending time with me at English Bay! I got a little tan. woohoo! Thanks C and M for a relaxing night out. My feet hurt a bit this morning but it was all worth it. It was good seeing you two.. we must meet up again soon. GO OUTSIDE EVERYONE! Bring out the shorts and let the sun shine on you!

Practice saying these words daily

Tranquility, serenity and quietness.... you will find peace within yourself.

I'm reading this book...

It says "To become a happy person have a clean soul, eyes that see romance in the commonplace, a child's heart and spiritual simplicity."

"The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry. Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love. Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others. Do as you would be done by. Try this for a week and you will be surprised."

"People are defeated in life not because of lack of ability, but for lack of wholeheartedness."

I am...

trying to smile every day but some days are just so hard. Can you make me smile???

What to say, what to say...

All I want to say is... I can't wait to watch Sex in the City!!!! It's coming out May 30!!! Who wants to watch it with me??!??! This is an open invitation!!!

Saddened

So here's the scoop. My neck has been hurting for a while. I went to see my doctor and my xray report shows that I have degenervative changes where the disc between C4 and C5 is narrowing and the curvature of my cervical spine is not what should be which is the main cause of the tingling and numbness down my arm. I'm worried. I'm extremely bothered by this but I've decided to use the knowledge that I have and the help of a physiotherapist to get me through this. I know it will not totally go away but I need to have it under control and I am committed. Wish me well everyone!! I NEED IT! ;)

Are you seriously still reading my blog??

Thanks for visiting still.
I know you're interested in what I have to say.
Sorry if it's been boring.
This is just a place for me to express myself and I know some of my messages are cryptic (this is what my friend told me once).
I just say what's on my mind.
The clock is ticking... your life is ticking... don't ever stand still.
Have you smiled recently?
Go for a walk and get some fresh air. It's rejuvenating.
Just remember... It really ain't so bad.

Today

The sun came out
It was shining so brightly

The sky was clear
Not a cloud to be seen

I went there alone again
But I didn't feel alone

I looked up
Then closed my eyes

I felt the warmth of the sun
It was simply relaxing

If you just realize what I just realized then...

Feb 13, 2007

That was the date I had my knee surgery.
My scars are still very visible.
How come it takes so long to fade?
It's been bothering me a lot recently.. Why can't it just go away?
:(

Hmm????

It's the deeper, more psychological needs that we are unconsciously trying to satisfy.

Must see

For those who haven't seen this video yet, please watch it now ->
http://video.stumbleupon.com/#p=ithct48cqw

"Life is a gift"

Thanks for the shots

Friday night was a crazy night.
Thanks to all my pptc peeps for all the laughter.
I had 5 shots and a caesar.
I was surprisely fine and still standing.
I won't forget how drunk S was. It was absolutely hilarious.
We gotta see you drunk again S but please don't puke! =P

Drenched

M and I went for our usual walk along the seawall today. As we were 20 minutes into our walk, droplets of rain began to fall down on us. Minutes later... IT WAS POURING! We tried to walk it still despite the weather but realized the rain wasn't gonna let down. Before we knew it, our jackets, pants and shoes were drenched! This was a first for me - walking in the heavy rain for more than 10 minutes without my umbrella!!!! It was crazy. We, of course, turned back and headed back to the car. Imagine pulling your sweatpants out of the washer and putting them on. That was exactly what we experienced today. Despite the rain, we were still able to put in a good 50mins of brisk walking/jogging. We will have to conquer the seawall again next Sunday. Let's hope the sun shines on us! =)

Who was I kidding?

How was I not going to continue writing in my blog? I'm at a point in my life where I want to share with you all how I feel. It hasn't been the best of times for me recently but I want you to know that I am living my life the way I know how. As hard as it might be, I will continue to smile.

The weather in Vancouver today was fantastic!! I only wish we get this kind of weather every single day - Sunny and beautiful. I got off work early today and rather than watching Oprah (which I haven't watched in ages), I went for a stroll along False Creek. Let me tell ya, it was well worth it!! =) I was alone today and I must say it was peaceful. I took my ipod with me and I was definitely in my own world for a good hour. I sat alone near David Lam park and witnessed the sun glistening upon the waters of False creek. I took a deep breath. I looked up into the sky. I felt at peace with myself. It felt really, really good.

One more

Sorry I said no more blogging but I had to share this one with you all:

Things may not be getting worse, they may be leading you on a new unforseen journey of self discovery.

Break from blogging

OK - I've decided that I won't be writing anything for the next 2 weeks.
Sorry guys.
Don't worry, I'll be back.
BTW, I'm still waiting for the sun to come out.
Want to know what I'll be doing for the next little while? Walking the seawall - Goal: 1 hr. Let's do it M!

I don't blame you

I don't blame you for speaking your mind
especially if that makes you feel better

I don't blame you if you hate me
because i know how much it hurts

I don't blame you for questioning my decision
but I just hope one day you can understand

I will never say a bad word about you
because I know how great a person you are

You will always be in my heart
I will never forget all that you've done for me

Thank you

I'm thanking you because:

you came into my life
you made me believe in laughter again
you cared about me so much
you never once complained
you always respected me for who I am
you went above and beyond to make me happy
you made me feel safe when I was in your arms
you loved me more than I could ever love myself

I'm waiting for you to smile.... the world needs to see you smile.

I'm still here.

I'm sorry.
It hurts, I know.
I want you to smile.
You be strong. I know you'll try.
The grey skies will clear.

I'm looking for an answer...

Can someone shed some light on me???

"LIVE SIMPLE"

Committed to....

Getting in shape for the summer!! So I've been eating too much lately. I've noticed the change in my body. I am experiencing every girl's worse nightmare of having her favorite jeans impede her normal breathing pattern. I'm sad but I am motivated to get back into shape. =) I am heading back to the gym and making a promise to all of you that I will fit into my jeans comfortably!!!!

I'm still blogging... just not as often.

Hey there!! Sorry I haven't been posting anything up. I've been lazy and stress has been playing a big part of my life recently. Despite having gone to Las Vegas 2 weeks ago, I'm still stressed out. Las Vegas was a much needed mini break for me. I had a blast. It was a nice getaway from reality. Vacations are always too damn short!! ARGH! The highlight of my Vegas trip was me winning some money at the Wheel of Fortune slot machine. I LOVE THAT GAME! Have any of you played it? If you haven't, you must go and experience the fun in that game. I hear they have that at RiverRock. Anyway, I hope everyone is enjoying our cold spring weather. I'm hoping the sun will come out soon... Cheers!!!

Physically and mentally exhausted

It's time for a vacation.

SO darn confused and frustrated....

Vancouver is beautiful...

After many cold and dreary days of winter, we finally had a beautiful warm and sunny day in Vancouver. And what a day it was to be away from work. I really didn’t do much today… I decided to go for a drive and really took a moment to enjoy the clear blue skies, our gorgeous mountains and feel the crisp cool breeze… I’m looking forward to spring... I can’t wait to feel the warmth of the sun again. =)

Why?

Why do we keep asking WHY??

I will be grateful for the life that I have, and not one that I wish I had.

A New Day

I decided to rearrange my room today. This came about after some shopping at Ikea. Of course, my room is nothing like the showrooms there but it occurred to me that my room was very disorganized and very cluttered. So today, I woke up and was determined to clean up my mess and change the way my room looked. I couldn't believe how much junk and unworn clothing I had. I discarded a lot of stuff.... old and new.. things that are no longer of importance to me. You can say it was a spur of the moment kind of thing... after 4 hours of cleaning and moving... I have a brand new room!! I love it!! It almost makes me feel like it's a start to a brand new day, a brand new year... and possibly some new exciting adventures in my life. Actually there's a better way to describe it; It feels like a cleanse!! Seriously. ;) ha! Okay.. enough of my blabbering... I hope everyone is having a great start to the new year. If it hasn't been too pleasant, you should always believe that things will only get better. ;)

Happy 2008 Everyone!!

The new year has come and I want to wish everyone a happy and healthy new year. All the best in 2008!! People have asked if I made any new year's resolutions. My answer to that is no because sadly, I never fulfill my committments that I make for New Year's. So what's the point? =) I say we should always work towards becoming better people regardless of when it is. For those of you who have made resolutions... I hope you are able to fulfill them. For those who are like me who haven't made any resolutions... continue to sleep, eat, work, eat and sleep. ha! Bye for now.